Found something I wrote about back in the Spring of 2012 and I still find it to be true...
I am learning more about myself in my 40's than I knew about myself the last twenty some years!
I am realizing that I am pretty simple! I don't need fancy clothes or fancy food or fancy cars or fancy houses. I am rather content in jeans and a t-shirt and comfy shoes! I don't wear a lot of make-up; I don't get my nails done often and I am okay with that!
I find great joy and contentment being with my family and friends. Just hanging out; playing games etc. I like good books; I love going out to lunch with a friend.
I like Saturday & Sunday mornings enjoying a cup of coffee with my husband. (one of my favorite things)
I spent a lot of my twenties and thirties trying to be someone I thought people expected me to be. I spent many days doing what I didn't want to do or even like to do for that matter. All for the sake of trying to be "nice."
I gauged how I was doing as a Mom by comparing myself to others. I was very hard on myself if I didn't have my dinner menus planned out or a chore chart of what to be accomplished.
Looking back I realize most of my stress and disappointment I put on myself. There were lies I believed.
I see now that the enemy of our soul wants to continually keep us in a place where we don't feel worthy. We believe his lies that we are not "good enough; thin enought; organized enough etc."
Wow! I am 49 and am just now realizing that The Lord loves me just as I am! He gave me desires different than someone else's desires.
Lately in my devotional reading I am learning "It's all about the heart." Jesus most of all wants me to love Him with and from my "whole" heart! Not half, not partial ~ all of it! Completely!
The more that I read God's word I believe that it's the condition of our heart that The Lord is concerned with the most!
